tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-44153319467867560762024-03-05T22:52:48.717-07:00Mixed Orientation Marriage ... At Least it Used to BeI'm a lesbian. I'm an ex'd Mormon. Divorced. ExH remarried. Living the single mom life. The journey is difficult at times but I'm happy to be out and finally living as me.Kelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.comBlogger127125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-59773654526052044632015-11-08T19:34:00.001-07:002015-11-08T19:34:39.970-07:00Church Policy and Tender MerciesOn November 5, 2015 Deseret News published an updated section of the Church Handbook which draws a hard line between the church and homosexuality, especially in relation to the children.
At approximately 1:30 am on November 6th, I read the news article online and immediately felt hurt, betrayal, fear, and much confusion. Within minutes I had posted my emotions on Facebook and then neglected to Kelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-89376885844731016932015-02-19T05:08:00.000-07:002015-02-19T05:08:00.113-07:00I'm Not Sure it's PossibleKelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-59295552412442766412015-01-15T21:18:00.002-07:002015-01-15T21:18:49.040-07:00Loss and VulnerabilityI was blessed with three grandmas, three grandpas, and one great-grandma until I was roughly ten years old. They didn't start dying until I was 19 years old or so. The grandma that I've been closest to, the one I grew up around, will be 98 this May. She the last one left.
Even though my grandma has been in bed for five years or so, she was still able to communicate and most of the time she even Kelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-10539468737462478052014-11-12T00:00:00.000-07:002014-11-12T00:00:07.837-07:00November 12thKelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-80875501245519893022014-10-03T08:46:00.000-06:002014-10-03T08:46:15.862-06:00Temple SealingThis afternoon, Kendall will be sealed to his wife of just over a year. I'm supposed to meet up with them, and all the other happy people, to "celebrate" afterward. This week has been hellish in many ways and I have a feeling that putting on a happy and supportive face is going to prove difficult.
The feelings surrounding this event are definitely mixed. Kendall has been nothing but supportive Kelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-46304599316744880672014-09-29T20:53:00.001-06:002014-09-29T20:53:26.853-06:00If I Only Had Today
IF I ONLY HAD TODAY
by Hilary Weeks
It seems like I've watched a million sunsets
And stared at a thousand full moons
Sometimes it feels like I've been here forever
And sometimes it all feels brand new
I could never count the heartbeats
From the day I was born until now
But not a single one goes unnoticed
By Him who breathes life in me somehow
But if there were no more tomorrows
IfKelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-28121126822916634132014-09-16T20:50:00.002-06:002014-09-16T20:50:40.356-06:00UncertaintyKelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-35011558751368098972014-09-04T18:04:00.001-06:002014-09-04T18:04:22.590-06:00The Bigger MeaningI've recently begun chatting with a woman who stumbled onto my blog. It's been a nice reminder of the reason I initially began to write.
Listening to each other and sharing our stories is vital in this crazy process! How easy it is to feel all alone, being a gay Mormon. It's hard enough to notice differences between the "type" of member you are compared to the bishop's family, or the RS/EQ Kelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-12047805534849510852014-08-29T22:40:00.002-06:002014-08-29T22:40:53.887-06:00I Hate LoveKelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-62784080133007474082014-08-26T16:30:00.001-06:002014-08-26T16:30:26.673-06:00SighYou know you're having a bad day when biting into a strawberry brings you to tears.
Son of a ...Kelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-83030340897212117582014-08-05T19:23:00.004-06:002014-08-10T22:32:41.193-06:00There is Happiness ...... And it comes in the form of childhood memories.
Picking my own blackberries
Blackberry bushes on most roads, free for the picking
Hummingbirds out the dining room window
Cattails
Kelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-66472106880093128412014-08-02T18:58:00.003-06:002014-08-02T18:58:57.220-06:00Sad FaceKelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-67067598058246218192014-07-26T08:30:00.000-06:002014-07-26T08:30:00.982-06:00My Daughter is Receiving Her EndowmentsThe day I've both looked forward to and have dreaded for several years now is finally here. My daughter is currently in the temple for the first time, to receive her endowments to prepare for her mission. My heart was torn watching her walk away from me, entering the forbidden-to-non-members area of the temple. Although I'm her number one supporter in life, and her desires, her goals, and her Kelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-40382470099505816382014-07-17T14:23:00.000-06:002014-07-19T18:12:09.487-06:00Completing the Far Between DocumentaryThis project is very important and I'm extremely passionate about it. Kendall Wilcox and cohorts have done an exceptional job so far. Please follow the link, read about the documentary, watch the amazing trailer (I appear at minute 3:29), and DONATE!!! even if only a small amount.
https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/1585836999/far-between
http://farbetweenmovie.comKelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-70754886944554709182014-07-02T22:29:00.002-06:002014-07-02T22:29:32.629-06:00My Daughter's Mission CallThe day has finally come! I got home and opened my mailbox to find a large white envelope from The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. She was convinced it wouldn't be here today and that we'd have to wait at least another week, but it was there!! She had to work and she still lives a couple of hours away from home, so she won't be here until tomorrow.
She's invited a few close Kelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-1923944526340411282014-06-23T22:28:00.000-06:002014-06-24T19:51:49.625-06:00Kate Kelly's ExcommunicationI'm not surprised that Kate Kelly was excommunicated. No one should be.
I think about a store owner who has a rule posted that the person who doesn't wear shoes into their store will be kicked out. Some barefoot customer walks in and is immediately asked to put on shoes or leave. The person refuses. The store owner follows through and the customer is then kicked out.
Should that surprise anyoneKelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-34240331042529983052014-06-18T21:16:00.000-06:002014-06-18T21:16:18.979-06:00Bible Study Gone BadI've been attending Bible Study every Wednesday night with a friend, at her Baptist church. We're in the middle of doing a 12 week study and we began with the creation. Although the pastor has mentioned homosexuality a few times, it hasn't been unbearable until tonight.
Suddenly my mind flashed back to almost ten years ago when I was in the middle of my deepest depression, in and out of Kelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-17389180693333904292014-06-14T22:37:00.000-06:002014-06-14T22:37:38.626-06:00Letter to Kendall's BishopKendall is preparing to be sealed to his new wife on their anniversary, in August. His bishop has asked that I write a letter, sharing my feelings about all of it. I have many feelings about it, but it comes down to the fact that 1) it's unnecessary since Kendall can be sealed to someone without my blessing, and 2) I'm not sharing all of my feelings with him. I decided to write it, since Kendall Kelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-84814393962279014362014-06-04T23:01:00.000-06:002014-06-13T09:06:51.822-06:00Far Between Documentary and Update
Close to three years ago, Kendall and I had the opportunity to be filmed for a documentary by Kendall Wilcox (not my Kendall) called Far Between, about gay Mormons. Our three part video series can be seen here:
http://farbetweenmovie.com/kelly-and-kendall-part-1/
http://farbetweenmovie.com/kelly-and-kendall-part-2/
http://farbetweenmovie.com/kelly-kendall-part-3/
I was recently asked toKelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-85307308590662480382014-05-20T19:25:00.000-06:002014-05-20T19:25:15.492-06:00Truth Hurts ... Lies Hurt More
"The world is too fragile for people to be untrue. There's too much at stake, and life's too short for lies. And you're the worst kind of person in the world because you wasted my heart, my time."
Kelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-31370035655343026552014-05-03T17:27:00.001-06:002014-05-03T17:27:11.959-06:00ChangeThere have been some exceptional changes in the past few months. Although I generally dread change, at this point I find myself genuinely happy and free. It's been a long while, but it's happening!
I was given a promotion at work. I've continued to move up in the company every few months since I began working there almost two years ago. I'm very fortunate to work with the people that I do. Kelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-85586955550205360962014-04-06T20:57:00.002-06:002014-04-06T20:57:47.845-06:00TruthKelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-51385488217705135392014-04-01T16:15:00.001-06:002014-04-01T16:15:19.249-06:00My Kids: They're Surviving (and Thriving)
My daughter has decided to serve a mission!
When I came out to my sister several years ago, there were a lot of things she said, but one thing has haunted me ever since. Although I don't remember the exact words, I remember the sentiment. She said that she was worried about what would happen to my kids since I stopped going to church, and then she said she believed my boys would never Kelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-903814766205535112014-03-21T16:32:00.001-06:002014-03-21T16:32:13.580-06:00“Betrayal is the only truth that sticks""The reason that betrayal is the most devastating kind of loss is because most often it is a loss that didn't have to occur. It only occurs because of someone's deliberately hurtful behavior, or their carelessness, or their own personal weakness. Unlike a loss such as death or illness, there is usually some sort of choice involved. The person who was betrayed believes that the choice was wrong Kelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4415331946786756076.post-67562131803909714722014-03-18T00:00:00.000-06:002014-03-18T00:00:03.335-06:00True LoveThere has been one person in my life who has loved me romantically ... unconditionally, truly, and without limits. My husband, now ex. Today is what would be our 20th anniversary.
Kendall stood by through all of my ups and downs and zig-zags. He saw me through jealousy and fear and insecurities. He held my hand and reassured me when I was so scared that I began pushing him away. I pushed andKelly slash FindingMyWayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11595485322159525052noreply@blogger.com0