Tuesday, May 7, 2013

"I Don't"

Tomorrow is the one year anniversary of my divorce. Sure does bring a lot of emotions. I'm grateful for the events that led to finally saying "I don't," and untying that tangled knot. I'm still grateful that Kendall is my best friend and that we work together for the kids. I used to wonder what I would feel if I was divorced, yet alone. I wondered if I'd still feel that it was worth it, or if I'd wish that I had stayed married out of safety, familiarity, and convenience. Well, I'm divorced, yet alone, and I have no regrets. If I'm alone for the rest of my life (God help me!!) I will still feel peace with the fact that I'm true to who I am. As equally important, I will always be happy that Kendall was able to move on and truly find the love of his life. I can do this thing called being me, being gay, being alone, being aware, and being at peace. I'm grateful. And I'm okay.

5 comments:

Kendall said...

Happy D-day!I'm glad that you are still my best friend!

I know that you will find that certain someone who will treat you the way you deserve to be treated, and you'll have your happy ever after.

LYK

Jessica said...

Happy divorce? It's been helpful to me to go through this with you. I know who I can count on, thanks luv.

For real, a year? Seems like FOREVER ago.

PS: can I get an email update when you post here because i didn't know you had put stuff on here recently.

Kelly slash FindingMyWay said...

Thanks, Vegan. You too! And the rest is certainly debatable.

Jess - we get to count on each other, luv. ;) As for the email notifications... I'm on it, lazy stalker!

Dean Scott said...

My former wife hoped that I would find someone. It took over ten years, but it finally happened. She, along with our son and the man who came into my life a few months ago, were together at the hospital when I had surgery. She is happy to see that I now have someone who I can fully love, just as she is fully loved by her new husband. Best wishes to you, Kendall, and your family.

Kelly slash FindingMyWay said...

Beautiful, Dean. Thank you for sharing that. I'm happy it's working out for all of you.